Today you are one month old. In 4 short weeks, you have captured our hearts and inspired a love beyond measure. December 28th, I woke up with a splitting headache – unlike any I have ever known. That night, you were born – another experience unlike any I have known. Each day, you show me new things. It started with your tiny hands. Then you kicked your feet. One eye opened. Then both of them simultaneously. You showed us a silly sideways smile. You reached out and grabbed my finger. You stared up at me as I held you the first time. As daddy sung to you and we rang in the new years together, you fell into a seemingly deep sleep only to arose when he stopped. You knew he was there and singing to your audience of one.
This past week, we have embarked on the next step in our journey – living our lives together in our home. You have met your brother, Kemba. You have slept in your crib for the first time. You endured tummy time. We have read lots and lots of books. Sung lots and lots of songs. Danced around the house – totally free and unencumbered. No more wires to hold you down, my sweet one. We have slowly worked our way into a family of three. And it’s sweet. So sweet.
January has been the craziest, most exciting, scariest, and joyful month of my life. Everything about you, the way I feel about you, and how you continue to change my life is unpredictable. I have seen God’s boundless grace in places I’d never imagined. As I watch Wade hold you, baby boy, I know more truly how the Father loves us. I hope that I have shown you some glimpse of God’s love for you in these weeks, little man. I hope that in the next month of your life, I can be even more of a vessel of that love for you. And I pray, I pray with all of my heart, that you grow up to know God’s love way beyond me. That you know His love incarnate and his grace beyond measure.
Who knows what February holds? Hopefully more calories! More milk. More wakefulness. More sleep (one can hope). More love. More peace. More joy.
Happy 1 month, Beckett James! We love you.
– Mommy and Daddy